Out of Control
Okay, I’ll admit it.
I am not a fan of change.
I have not been able to put a finger or word on how I have been feeling lately until recently; I have felt completely out of control. A lot of change has been coming my way in the last few months. Do not get me wrong, it has been a lot of joyful change that I am truly thankful for, but change that has honestly left me fearful of the future. Change that has made me question my adequacy and ability to handle it. Ultimately, I have not been relying on God, but relying on myself to remain in control.
The Lord has been slowly tearing down the walls of my prideful heart to remind me of my lack of trust in Him, and my sinful nature of wanting to be the one in control. He has been showing me how much I truly burden myself, that I forget the hope that is right before my eyes—the faithfulness of God in all seasons.
“Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith?” -Matthew 6:25-30
Yes, that’s me. The one “of little faith.” I have spent my time worrying about every little thing, and I have ignored the fact that the God I know is all powerful, all knowing, and unchanging in every bit of change that new chapters bring. How often do I forget that He is the One that has allowed the change in my life. How quick I am to forget that He is the Potter that is molding me and refining in these seasons.
“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” -Matthew 6:33-34
If you are like me and you are walking through a new season, may we let go of our tight grasp of wanting ultimate control. May we melt our worries away as we stand firm in the Truth of His Word that He is the One in control, and that “change” is no surprise to Him. May we always trust that He is faithful on all mountain tops, in every valley, and sovereign in every storm. Thanks be to God for the hope of ourunchanging King!
“The seasons change and you change, but the Lord abides evermore the same, and the streams of His love are as deep, as broad and as full as ever.” -Charles Spurgeon
