"The heart of the man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps" -Proverbs 16:9
The older I get, the more this verse resonates with me. I'm a big dreamer and planner. This time two years ago I thought I had my whole college and business career mapped out. I could tell you my goals, aspirations, and what I hoped to do once out of college. Fast forward to this year and nothing is the same. The Lord continually placed on my heart a new passion and new aspirations late last year that in turn, changed everything around me- including the college I was attending at the time.
One of the things I've had to face while embarking on this journey of my life is that God cares more about my character than my comfort. I really wanted to find reasons for my life to stay the same. I liked it! I was comfortable, felt content at my university, had my own community- why start over?
God was relentlessly showing me over and over again that He had different plans. And that's when I realized I was going to have to get out of my comfort zone if I was to be obedient and follow His Will.
One of the reasons why I love studying theology is because I get to learn about this All Powerful, Creator who is more than just a Holy God sitting on a throne in heaven.
I get to learn about His attributes, which especially in times of uncertainty, ultimately draw me closer to Him. Soon the idea of Him being sovereign, all knowing, and loving become radically enhanced.
To know that in every season, God, in His love, is actively working and is at all times involved in what goes on/is going to happen in my life-
this is what my nervous hands can cling on to.
And this is the beautiful silver lining of "change" that God uses.
How much more I am relying on Him!
But it's more than that.
Humans change so often. In high school, I wanted to be a heart surgeon and now I can't even hear the word "blood" without getting nauseous. This time last year I didn't like broccoli, and this semester I ate it for almost every dinner I loved it so much.
Last year I also thought I was going to graduate from GCSU with a four-year degree in Mass Communication, but now I'm booking an airplane ticket for New York to study The Bible.
We don't know what our future holds. We don't know the passions we have yet to discover, the desires we have yet to have, or the feelings we have yet to feel.
But God does. He knew it all along. He knew I would be faint at heart and would not want to be a doctor, he knew I would grow to like something I used to avoid, and He knew before the foundation of the universe that I would be going to New York this fall.
And to realize that the one who knows me, TRULY knows me, is the one in charge of what happens in my life- is the greatest peace I could ever have.
Our ultimate goal as believers is to make much of Christ and glorify Him forever.
And if God, being sovereign over all, moves us from our comfort zone in order to give Him more glory- what an honor that is. Better to have a strengthened character built on Christ's decree than to hide in the corner scared to carry out His unshakeable plan for your life.
Because believe me, it is better than what you thought you would need.
"And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose" -Romans 8:28
Granted that doesn't mean your life will be all daisies and roses, but through any circumstance that comes you are able to glorify God through it. Having His power made perfect in your weakness- ultimately magnifying Him as being the all knowing Creator God who, in His love, is active and with you every step of the way. The King of the Universe is mercifully preparing the steps in which you are to walk in.